It would appear I’ve been caught unaware. It’s not the first time, but I admit, I was surprised, then disappointed, and finally angry.

1 Peter 5:8 (HCSB)
Be serious! Be alert! Your adversary the Devil is prowling around like a roaring lion, looking for anyone he can devour.

He’s sneaky, crafty, that enemy of ours. He shrouded himself under the veil of grief and fooled me, tried to devour me, again.

Periodically, I find myself struggling so mightily. When I’m so overwhelmed by everything in my world and I plummet into this deep hole and don’t quite realize it until I’m so far down I can’t see light and then just wallow until it all passes. I’ve chalked it all up to the ever moving waves of grief, but that just hasn’t felt true for a while (except February), but I didn’t connect. This weekend, I connected.

I was reminded, thank you, Lord, about my long struggle with estrogen and progesterone  hormone imbalances. I used to have a pretty solid handle on things, but no more, and I’ve forgotten how much of a psychological killer it is. That pit is so deep. Recognizing things afresh, I’m feeling hopeful once again that I can get a handle on it. So, out came the essential oils this morning and hopefully I can be more mindful and vigilant. And hopefully that will mean WAY more good days and productivity and emotional health.

As I was thinking about this, sharing with a friend and doing some posting and scrolling on social media this morning, I was awakened to a double whammy by the enemy.

Last week, I was so excited to dive into a journey through the Lenten season and share it with any of you who choose to join me. I was feeling led to dive into scripture, with the help of the shereadstruth.com study, and finally start the Bite Sized Bible Moments community group I felt God put on my heart. And then…

WHAM!

A dive into a pit of self doubt, grief, discouragement, loneliness, sadness, and overwhelm.

As I look at all of it now, from a renewed perspective of hope and clarity, I’m reminded that the enemy hates it when we dive into God. So he tries to dissuade and derail us. Oh, and it almost worked. Almost.

What do I know now? That God must have something absolutely amazing in store for us during this Lenten season if the enemy has gone to so much trouble to try to defeat me, and you. There is nothing so grand about me or what I have to offer – the grandness is in His word; I just want to share it and encourage you in it.

So, without further adieu,  won’t you join me in a new Bite Sized Bible Moments group where we will read scripture and seek to dive further into God? Click here to hop on over and join, and don’t forget to click that follow button, too.

We, I, must be vigilant so as to not be caught unaware. I also must surround myself with encouragement. How about you? Don’t let the enemy derail you and pull your focus from God. Come join me as we dive into Him.

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